Christmas

I posted a picture on Instsgram with a short caption about how the run up to Christmas makes me feel. Don’t get me wrong, I’m not a scrooge by any means. I love decorations, lights and festive treats but I don’t enjoy the pressure of having to feel festive.

This really came about last year when a lot of work travel in the run up to Christmas not only meant I missed a lot of activities but it also knocked me out with an awful cough/cold and I spent a lot of the time in bed.

I spend a lot of Christmas Day worrying that people are not having a good time because things have gone quiet or they do not really like the gifts I’ve got them that it really stresses me out or the fact my mum can’t sit still whilst the dinner is cooking. It can feel a bit overwhelming. I also have a tendency to want to dress up on Christmas Day which can leave me feeling uncomfortable by the end.

I am really trying my best to not get caught up in these negative feelings this year. I haven’t gone overboard with gifts and after a few health scares in my family this year I’m just grateful to spend time with people.

I got the majority of my shopping done in November so I haven’t had to think about facing the crowds and any top ups can be done online!

I have a couple of events booked in but to be honest am looking forward to taking it easy and actually using the time off to give myself a break without worrying whether or not it feels festive because everyone has a different version of what this means. So this christmas day you will be able to find me chilling out in my leggings and a cosy jumper after a well deserved life in.